Life

Forever Wouldn’t Have Been Long Enough

“In the end these things matter most: How well did you love? How fully did you live? How deeply did you let go?” – Jack Kornfield, Buddha’s Little Instruction Book

There aren’t words to describe the pain you feel when you have to say goodbye to someone you love, especially when that someone is your devoted furry companion. Two days after writing my last blog post, my husband, son and I held our best friend, Rocket, as he closed his eyes and found his wings.

The world stopped spinning as he stretched his neck out and laid his head in my arms. It was what he always did when he sensed I was sad. It always seemed like it was his way of saying, “I’ll always be here for you.”

I tried to hold back my tears and be strong for him. My husband and son were attempting to the do the same. In that moment though, we knew Rocket could sense our hearts breaking. We weren’t ready to face the world without him, and it was impossible to hide that sorrow from our infinitely wise companion. He used the last of his strength to remind us that he would always be by our sides.

In these last two weeks, we’ve felt his presence. He’s reminded us in small ways that the bond we shared is rooted at the soul level.

We really weren’t ready to say goodbye, but the truth is forever wouldn’t have been long enough to have him by our sides. While we still long to see his smile waiting at the bottom of the stairs, feel his kisses on our cheeks, and embrace his warm, soft body, we’re holding onto his final promise.

“I always be here for you.”

Thank you, Rocket. You’re still the goodest dog of them all.

Life

There’s Nothing Like the Love of a Good Dog

Author Gabriel Zevin once wrote that there are over 300 words for love in canine. Anyone who has ever loved a dog knows just how true this is.

I’ve often asked my loyal sidekick, Rocket, how I could repay him for the love he’s brought to my life. He answers, every time, with a slobbery kiss and a soft nuzzle. 

These last few weeks, I’ve been reminded over and over that dogs love on a whole new level. Three weeks ago, Rocket collapsed in the house. He was conscious, but he couldn’t move. After creating a makeshift cot, we rushed him to the emergency vet. As I held him in the back of the Jeep telling him how much I loved him, he looked up at me and licked away my tears.

In pain, he chose to show love.

As we’ve sat up at night trying to make him comfortable, he’s shown us that what comforts him most is just having us near. Through the home cooked meals, the extra time to help him around the house, and the creative hiding of medicine in “treats,” he matches every step we take with gratitude and admiration.

He finally answered my question. How do you pay back a dog for the love he brings to your life? You become his human. That’s all he wants and all he needs.

There may be 300 words for love in canine, but in English we can sum it up in two… GOOD DOG.

Nature

Fall is in the Air

There hasn’t been a lot about 2020 that I would consider “normal.” For the first time in at least five years, we’re experiencing true seasons in my part of the world. Nature seems to be normalizing this year, and it’s breathtaking!

The beautiful colors of this season are ushering in my favorite part of the year. Let’s hope this winter shows up in style!

I laughed way too had at this comic. I wish I knew who the artist was so I could give them credit. If you know the source, please let me know and I’ll add it to this blog.

Life

It’s So Good To Be Back!

Wow, it’s been such a long time. It feels good to get Unscripted Life back up and running. I’ve been paying for this URL for years with the intention of returning to blogging. The plan was to relaunch the blog when I had more free time. I quickly learned free time isn’t something that just shows up. It’s something you have to intentionally create.  

A lot has changed in the last six years. My son is a teenager now (he had just been born when I first launched this blog). Our family built our dream house in a neighborhood so magical that I have to pinch myself regularly to make sure all of this is real. My neighbors are the ones Mr. Rogers sang about (I’m sure you’ll be hearing a lot about them soon). And professionally, I’m working with inspirational content creators to put a lot of good and kindness into the world.  

My years away from the blog have been quite a ride. I look forward to telling you all about it, sharing the lessons I’m continuing to learn, and sharing new adventures with you. I considered republishing some of the content from the old blog, but I’ve personally grown so much that I feel like starting from scratch feels more authentic. Thank you for coming along for the ride and for your patience while I build this blog into something amazing.

About Me

Hi, I’m Ivy-Dreamer, Pretend Comedian, Positivity Badass!

I once heard Dr. Wayne Dyer say, “Stop acting as if life is a rehearsal. Live this day as if it were your last. The past is over and gone. The future is not guaranteed.”

Wow, do these words hold a lot of weight… especially while living (and re-launching a blog) during a global pandemic.

My adult life always seemed like it was stuck in fast forward. I was living for a moment in the far distant future, searching the horizon for what was to come. I could never truly tell if I was running toward something or away from it, but I was certainly running. And I chose roles that fit the pace – firefighter, kick boxer, breaking news reporter, people pleaser, sleep-deprived mom, and the list goes on and on.

I was definitely accomplishing a lot, but I was missing even more. While pushing through to get to the next destination and the many that followed, I kept forgetting to enjoy the journey. Life was passing me by while I was racing to the finish line. When I finally took the time to slow down and reflect, I realized I was racing toward someone else’s dream.

It was one of those “no turning back” moments. I could keep pressing forward, continuing to climb the mountain I had fought so hard to conquer or I could start down a new path that was so overgrown with uncertainty that I couldn’t see where to step next.

I think you already know where this is heading, but it took me awhile to get there. I turned around a lot. I looked for detours. I even lost myself and both paths for awhile. Then I learned that life has a way of course correcting, if you allow it.

And I’m so glad I did.

I learned more while being lost than I could ever have thought possible. When I allowed my life to become unscripted, I found myself. I hope my story and the lessons I continue to learn help you see some of the magic around you. Life can be messy and uncertain, but it can also be sweet and seriously amazing!

Thank you for joining me on this journey.